There was a girl. Her real name is of no import, so we shall call her Jane.
Jane
was an extraordinarily ordinary girl. This wouldn't have been a problem
if the word "ordinary" hadn't taken on an extraordinary meaning. The
word now stood for all that a person shouldn't be, in this day and age
of extraordinariness. Everyone was a star in his or her own way,
everyone the owner of a little badge with the words "You are unique!"
printed on it, commonly accompanied by a picture of a star. Everyone
believed in their own uniqueness.
Except for Jane. For
no one could so openly lie, and tell her she was special, so unspecial
was she. The only thing remarkable about her was her plainness, and of
course nobody had the heart to tell her this.
Jane fell
in love a number of times, primarily in her youth. Falling in love got
increasingly harder as she got older. When she was young there was
plenty to love. The soft scent of flowers. The majesty of a mountain.
Gentle rain on a sleepy afternoon. The rainbow after the rain.
But
her grown-up mind dissects all these. Merely a somewhat pretty effect
caused by the diffraction of light through water. The result of plate
tectonics. Life had ground her down, her love and her enthusiasm for
life.
There were times when Jane felt acutely lonely.
Even more than usual. The onset of which could have been caused by any
number of things, say, a good movie. A love song. A book. Sunset. In
this heightened state of loneliness, a certain despair would begin to
gnaw at her. She felt that something had to be done.
Cue
the boys. Lonely boys, to be sure. These never quite worked out though,
despite all her earnest efforts. But none of them ever truly loved her.
And if she were to be perfectly honest, she would admit that the
converse was true too.
But sometimes it felt so real.
Like there was so much more to be had. With some of them, she felt as if
she could almost be happy. Always, she thought: I am in love! only to
find out that no, she wasn't, after all.
And she discovered a truth: An illusion of love is created when two lonely people, each desperate to fall in love, meet.
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